Popping Pills...

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Popping Pills

Popping pills like a new trend on the street
Just wishing and hoping that's all there is to it
But fate often aligns you with your worst nightmares and your best dreams
Conspiring to give you everything you wished for, and taking away everything you ever built upon

So you pop another pill, and you pop another one
Until the pain of the lost ones is nowhere in sight
Until the happiness you tasted, is nothing but stillness captured in a photograph
Until the emotions you feel reduce to the void that resonates with nothing and everything

And I often wonder...
Would it ever end?
How long would it take to change the gravity of the pain I feel?
How long till the I pop another pill?
How long till I finally feel?

And I often wonder...
Am I popping pills to save myself from the pain of the unknown?
Or am I popping pills to numb the part of me that's just waiting to self destruct?

But the more I wonder,
The more despair I become,
The more pills I pop...
And the more I feel as I'm saving myself...
-Gayatri 

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